Someone once told me:
“You dream to much,” she said sternly. “Your head is always
high up here in the clouds.” She added while waving her hands aggressively
emphasizing on the heights of my dreams.
Pause.
Today, I am upset. Maybe a bit too upset that I don’t even
want to talk about it, needless to say I’m not one for pouring her hear out.
Its not my thing – I for some reason find it a waste of time.
Today I am upset because someone so close to me
cross-examined “our dreams” the dreams we had built together from childhood.
Yes agreed; Maybe I do dream too much but since when has that become such a
misery? As far as I remember we were the 20 something year olds with a heart so
daring and risky. We were (and If I should only speak about myself now) the
ones who would go in gulf greetings (for those who don’t know it’s a store that
sells greeting cards and other cute stuff) and pick up the most inspiring
Disney ornaments that came out back in 2011.
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Since when did all this change? And why hadn’t I
realized? Maybe I have become too
determined this time around to really conquer my dreams.
I know with all this determination I have become over
organized and maybe on top of things way more than I should be, but if I feel
that’s working hard enough otherwise I will just slack off and in conclusion?
0% dream achieved.
I have forever been a dreamer, since childhood and anyone
who knows me well enough would know this prominent characteristic of mine. It’s
who I am. It’s my DNA. I can’t change it and I wont because there is no harm or
shame in being a dreamer. My parents love me for it (even though when I briefly
tell them my dreams they think I’m being cute and pat on my back and say (insha
Allah) and/or support me through it and as far as I knew, you, were the one who
always lead me thorough too and told me that all my hearts “just simple wishes”
will come true – that’s why we always had this bond and dream together.
I pray today and everyday that if Allah wills our – or shall
I say (my) now? Dreams come true. And even if they don’t I would still be happy
because I know that I worked hard enough with 100% organization and 0%
slacking. Allah is great so if I wont meet my dream here then I will meet my
dream in Jannah (heaven) #oneday insha ALLAH.
I believe in possibilities so don’t be a part of the dream
if you don’t want to be and if you DO, quit with the negativity.
Sincerely yours,
The unconditional forever dreamer
